t3rfoun lamn tktmoun shay elftra 6wela and you want it all out? ketha knt 7awlt amsk lsani bs i couldnt
I told faisal everything. kef kant 7yati w kef 9art kef Im a mess now and depression is eating me slowly.
Faisal didnt say any word he just hugged me. that kind of hug is all i needed to make me feel better.
We countinued walking elen mw9lna w i dont like to smoke in my apartment so awl maw9lni i took the ciggarette out
I was soooo sad I needed smoke to clear my mind.
Faisal: wsh t7sben nafsk g3d tsween?
Pulling the cigarette from between my fingers..
Lama: hey give me back my cigarette.
Faisal: NOT GOING TO HAPPEN
Lama: fine.
got another cigarette out from my pocket
faisal: yl3n shklk!! jbyyy
I quickly inhaled it and exhaled it shf6a 6weela sree3a eli wajhi glb a7mr.
Faisal: wajhk glb a7mr lamaaa
Pulling the cigarette out of my moth.
Lama: I think wa9ltni 5la9 al7en malk sh'3l feni rou7
Faisal: dont you see what you are doing to yourself?
Lama: I need to get this pain out of my chest!! you dont feel what i feel!
Faisal: you are only bringing more pain to your chest!
Lama: fuck off faisal rou7 bye!
What I hated about faisal that he doesnt stay! when you tell him something its like hes giving up on you may7awl yg3d maytrjak he just leave you ketha bkl brouda. Awl dgega he cares the next minutes hes harsh and he doesnt give a damn.
Faisal: okay
throwing his both hands up high, 7rkt eli "astslm" and he turned and walked away
Holy shit i didnt realize i smoked a pack
Is it because ahmed or the fact that im falling in love with a guy whos not ahmed. who gives up quickly, who can leave me in a second.
LA LAMA YOU ARE NOT FALLING IN LOVE, so 3ndi this believe ena people fall in love once in their life. and I fell inlove with ahmed hes my one and only i can never fall in love again. ill never be happy again.
I became more and more depressed when i thought of love, and thanks to faisal for reminding me of it.
The next day I woke feeling dizzy I couldnt get on my feet this is not good not at all 6b3n '39bt nfsi akl shay 3shan the feeling fades away aklt an apple, mu apple a day keeps the doctor away?
I felt better for now 3lagl I went to the university thank god I only have a class today and it was math but too bad faisal m3ay i dont want to see him.
Since I was bulimic eltuf7a eli akltha la sh3oryn rja3tha (6arshtha) I was standing next to a garbage outside the campus el7amdellah there's no one until faisal came.
Faisal: Lama!! shfeeek? are you okay?
I looked up to the sky covering my forehead t3rfoun lamn tjelkum do5a w ketha you want to control it by doing hathi el7rka and suddenly agoum alagy nfsi blmstshfa.
It was dark so its apparently night time. I founded faisal laying on the sofa sleeping.
Yallah akrh elmstshfyaat!! law faisal dra about what i do to my food he'll think im a psycho.
I tried to move to go to the bathroom ela faisal gam..
faisal: lama 7yati enty kwaysa?
lama: eh im fine
Faisal: laa laa latgoumen b'3aity shay ajeblk yah wla anadi elnurse?
lama: la bs abi arou7 7mam
faisal: awdeek and he winked
7ta w ana t3bana ya 7ywaaan
lama: NO THANK YOU
faisal:6yb estni asa3dk tmshen la t67en
lama: mafeni shay haw
faisal: emshi yallah w 76i ydk hena
he placed my hand around his neck and his around my hips
lema 5l9t he got up fast and helped me go back to my bed.
lama: wallah mara shukran faisal wallah mra mtfshlaa
Faisal: shd3wa 7g w wajb 7beebti
7beebti? what? bs slkt cause i dont think he mean anything.
Lama: You should go back t3btk m3ay w 97 els3a km
Faisal: 3 am, la 3adi t3bk ra7a w id rather stay here with you wla atrkk
Lama: a7!! mra mt25r faisal shloun bukra btrou7 eljam3a?
Faisal: ill skip
Lama: esh! min jdk dont do that im perfectly fine
Faisal: men gal 3shank -laughing-
okay ma7d tfshl. see thats what im talking about one minute he dies for me the next minute he become rude, and heartless
lama: oh okay -covering my face with my hair-
hw kan jals jmbi he slowly took pieces of my hair with his fingers yw5rhum 3n wajhi
Faisal: dont hide your face 5lena nshouf eljmaal
I laughed w kan fi bs shwayt wajh 3la 6ma6m, min kthr ma my face was red.
Faisal: lesh lesh tsween bnfsk ketha? g3da tdmren 7yatk bnfsk hatha akbr anwa3 el'6olm!! lama eli fat mat, im sure ahmed wants you to never change not smoke, not throwing your food up wala being depressed. you must move on life is all about moments, dont make them bad moments.
Lama: faisal please.. I feel comfortable doing what i do.
Faisal: you are not comfortable you are lying to yourself g3da t3thben 7alk wly 7olk!
Lama: help me faisal. -crying a river-
Faisal: i will lama bs la tbkeen -wiping my tears away-
Lama: how will you do that? -i smiled- I knew theres no way going back where i was, the happy lama.-
Faisal: ill let you happy again bs promise me you'll help me too
Lama: help you with what?
Faisal: help me esm3i klami see what got you in here l2nk masm3ty klami.
Lama: agoul just go back to whatever you are skipping school for
Faisal: ill skip that too for you ya galbi ;)
I laughed w bsr3a i changed the subject ignoring what he just said because i dont want to make this awkward ma3rf ard...
Lama: you never talked about yourself ana eli daym atklm yallah doork
Faisal: 6yb.. esmi faisal, mt5rj min mdars elXX felriyadh w ana 7alyn f jam3at king's..
Lama: la e7lf =))
Faisal: wallah? t7sbeni akthb dgega a6l3lk 9wr t5arujy
Lama: '3byy i believe you bs g9di talk about your life uf fashl=))
Faisal: ana elfashl? and he tickled my feet.
Lama: ya 7ywan ma7b a7d yd'3d'3ni.
Faisal: 7ta ana? and he tickled me even more
w ana i died from laughter w bl3'6 rfsta min el7mas
Faisal: ayy
Lama: omg -palm face- sorryyy sorry
Faisal: aa yal 7ywana and he tickled my stomach
Lama: btjeek rafsa thanya a7slk twgf
and he threw his hands up Faisal: ela rfsaatk aa ya ydi boseeeha
Lama: laaa tstaaahl:)
Faisal: gdha?
Lama: mhm -nodding my head- looking up at the roof
Faisal: 76i 3enk b3eni ashouf tr'6en t3wreni?
So when he said like that I laughed and stared at his eyes and he got closer and closer until their were only nug6a between us... you see the thing is his eyes. I cant keep my eyes of them. its like there's a gravity between our eyes. i tried i tried but i couldnt resist....
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteim soo excited, im like what is gonna happen!!?!?!?!?!
i loved the chapter, i think your heading in the right direction, and the story is getting better and better!!!
i can't wait for more!!!!!
and plz plz plz don't take soo long to post the next chapter, i wanna know what happens and i really am super excited!!!!
anyways post soon <333